Candy In My Closets

2008-02-02T16:36:00.000-08:00

Shifted.

2008-01-27T01:11:00.000-08:00

i have discovered a new calling.
and, seems like it has been forever since you've been gone.

2008-01-11T22:37:00.000-08:00

running in a circle
i lose myself in concern
trying to feel the mettle
when each day is echoed down by questions.
i need a pair of wings
to claim the life that's truly mine
i am so tired of running.
i wanna stand
freely.

2008-01-01T05:45:00.000-08:00

so, how does telling you links to the new year?
its just a new year with the old routine.
teeny weeny edgy
just how ive been.
you're weird. in a nice way.
vague questions, curt replies.
we just want it genuine dont we?

Mdm Tan(new supervisor):Mdm Wong told me that i dont have to worry because you're a very deligent girl.

Me: um, okay. -silence-

2007-12-29T19:39:00.000-08:00

well ive thought im not gonna be there.
i'd better not, i guess.
hmmm.

2007-12-24T22:08:00.000-08:00

sifted through gazillion of Iqbal-s
but none was you.
:/

and, if i could wish one thing
i'd hear you call my name.

2007-12-23T22:48:00.000-08:00

she's in her crucial moments.
whats been playing around in her mind
is her life's inevitable end.
but i'll always put it this way,
God wont let us leave this world without reasons.
fatalism helps us face it all.
my greatest prayer for you.

2007-12-12T04:15:00.000-08:00

cant help lying that i miss home.

2007-12-08T18:01:00.000-08:00

me, ''hope so...someday.''
8 yr old girl, ''dont hope. go for it.''

haha.
she reminds me of the prince from the book, The Little Prince.

2007-12-01T04:09:00.000-08:00

even before leaving,
i was hoping that im back.
so i could earnestly be preparing to leave again.
by means of staunching this fickle mind as well.
please mind, work straight.
ignoring the matter of importance for a bit.
but i'll mentally bring it along with me.

2007-11-30T01:16:00.000-08:00

my youthful hopes are in the limbo of lost dreams. :/
so let me be.
i'll just shoot arrows into the sky.
even if illusory happiness is ugly.
whatever you say.
somehow you'll be gone.

happy birthday(:
how old are you anyway?

2007-11-29T04:00:00.000-08:00

impressible.

my another weakness which i just realised.

was gone for sometime.

somehow its back.

good at one hand(mind occupying),

unhealthy at the other(left me floating).

who'd always shoot arrow into e sky.

well i always did.

2007-11-07T23:45:00.000-08:00

once again, nailed down the foremost. im only partially liberate as things are still undone at my end.
by all means, ive seriously done my part.

any hoots, no scholarship mdm.
i had better not figure on working with her.

Rihanna - Umbrella (Acoustic)

2007-09-30T01:12:00.001-07:00

2007-06-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

will be on hiatus fer a short period.

like the weather, im a fickle minded person.
im apathetic that if 'why' is the question, 'i dont know' will be e ans.
well.

just so you know,
im fine with it kay ;)

2007-05-29T23:50:00.000-07:00

friday,

seems like a farewell. initially ive been sticking stickers frm my little ones on my top. and ive the most stickers up on the last day of school this semester. children will feel appreciated. and i'll miss my little boy the most. happy holiday dearies.

saturday,

we sure gonna have more of this k girls.

monday,

im loving butterfly lots n lots.

today,

mdm made lotsa pretty cute cupcakes. but doesnt taste that good.

i had the loveliest cupcake. the one with lotsa little heart shapes sticking up. :))

but still i shud never judge a book by its cover.

and more work tmrw.

goodnight.

2007-05-21T23:29:00.000-07:00

finally had a dosage of my shorty partners.

well AINUL..ALERT! I MISS U AYY! hah.

wont be attending werk tmrw. yes, tmrw! only god knows why. tuesday and friday make the worst chicken farm. grr. im jaded ok. EXTREMELY. susu will relief my class. a goood news definitely fer my little ones. they wud prefer susu much more as to me moreover they've seen teacher sakinah's true colour. but my love is still profound. and so i shall have a very long tight sleep.

rude people are`all over. esp BOYS.
damn i feel like slapping his face and kicking his precious. sorry but I REALLY DO!
!!!!!!!

2007-05-19T20:43:00.000-07:00

tasks are piling up. both incomplete and advance. fer that i burned half of my saturday and almost accomplished em.
next year's enrolment registeration were held today and mdm made me a photocopy girl fer half an hr. i earned about 9 bucks frm parents. not bad eh. so unusually nice of mdm to let me have em all. ive always thought that she's calculative.
most of my little ones did well fer their revision paper. its their version of 'mid year examintion'. thanks to me parents. nt like yr child is so genius. no more taking concern if i still have to put up with a few parents' pathological attitude.

had a vaccination after werk as my chest been hurting every now and then. and throat's never better. after a week still sounds awful.

im actualie quite apprehensive of the fact that ive been showing apathetic behaviour as concern to a few things. as much as im satisfied, im getting bored with e daily routines. this happens when i had too much aimless plans in mind. how complex can a simple thing be. but nw, a way to fix things up is to learn frm experience.

fer the moment, i wanna be away frm e world.

2007-05-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

something that we NEVER miss each year.
as part of the elder grandchildren in e family im expected to arrange the family reunion so i supposed that we dined in at Sakuntala Food Palace. well today im only up fer indian food. niwae dinner were super goood :))

e middle one's a gift frm e food place.

successful mothers. mami liz, mami yati, aunty su, nenek and mama.

we sang her a loud birthday song ending with 'hoi!hoi!'. so embarassed that she bursted into tears.

our younger ones.

my baby boopy.

happy mother's day, mama.

and you too nani jaan.

goodnight.

2007-05-10T11:50:00.000-07:00

love is fer birds.
not me.

you should know.

2007-05-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

i was extremely jaded that i took cab home straight after werk. portfolios and ridiculous mother's day shits are veritably pushing me. and im having a severe sore ear that i just cant endure in my chicken farm classroom.

they were playing pretend and naufal told me that he's the princess and danial's the slave. mdm supervisor and i burst into tears upon this. mdm wong called him 'mak nenek' haha. he's one of a kind and a very bright boy.

and teacher su is very cantik today.

happy birthday dad :)

gd night.

my life's plain and white.

2007-05-06T22:38:00.000-07:00

after the family function, we caught spiderman 3 at vivo city. i rate it 10/10. it was really good. even nenek is very much satisfied. hah.
and finally i had my dosage of masala thosai at tekka. :)))) been craving fer a nice one like nuts.oh pls dont mind me. this is me since young.

...if ever there's such a person...
IF.

2007-05-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

everyone's nt feeling well so this is whut i cooked fer dinner.

sizzling red hot spicy devil kway teow noodle.

with lots of vegetables and shitake mushroom.

hate it with meats.

goodnight :)

2007-05-04T13:17:00.000-07:00

dont just blame it on p.m.s if u cant get control of yr swinging mood shit. its so unreasonable to over splash your temper. and when its over, u simply expect people who u smashed to understand that ure having p.m.s. i had too much of u. kau merepek ok.
tskkkk.

oh well...

big brother cooked good breakfast :)

werk have been keeping me busy. stayed back late yesterday washing toys and doing updates to my kids portfolio as they're to be done before upcoming monday. i was so jaded yesterday and yet ive to put up with a few ridiculous parents.
these are part of my reasons fer nt attending classes fer 3 wks.

vacation soon!
:)))

2007-04-28T23:04:00.000-07:00

my very first and exclusively special love note. :))

classmates before, colleague then.

our mother at werk.

im through with the past.

found a new direction.

im just not the same.

and u, move out of my way.

affirmation it is.

its all bout children, werk and school now.

happy 6th birthday to my dear Danish Faryadi baybeh. :)

2007-04-24T23:48:00.000-07:00

found myself in this plight. seeing one's caress was hit by collision in return and when the one i cherish uttered me words with great acrimony. it just put me in a low plight.
mdm supervisor trapped me in double bind. ultimately ive to forgo either one. tskkk.

it was really unfavourable and i promise i'll fix things up tmrw.

the sweetest thing :))

it'll be nice to have him as my brother.

my baby boy fergot his water bottle today so i brought him to the staff kitchen and seceretly gave him a vitagen frm the fridge. others thought that i was bias. then i treated a wound at his knee while he was doing his classwerk.

he's really a nice and pleasing god's creation. gahh.

danish faryadi is getting reckless of me lately. he calls me 'baybeh' all time instead of 'teacher'. and each time i told him off he would just reply ' shut up baybeh'.

really i don't know what to feel and how to react to this.

goodnight.

2007-04-22T22:02:00.000-07:00

this one i have is beyond compare.

its gratifying that we're still sharing as much.

if we ever said that we're companionless,

we know its a complete distortion of the fact.

count on me, always.

anyway...

happy 18th birthday brother!

thanks fer those good times that we had.

still here, still friends (:

2007-04-18T23:26:00.000-07:00

mother tongue lesson with e kiddies was hectic and kinda unruly. when we're supposed to communicate in malay language, i kept using english fer most of e time. fortunately, mdm supervisor wasn't checking on me anymore.

it was really backbreaking and ive no idea on making them understand about rearranging of sentences coz i didn't make any lesson preparation before hand. i just think that its getting a lil bit too tough fer them kids. i remembered learning to arrange sentences only when i was in primary school.

created some silly but CUTE actions fer e 'bangau oh bangau' song. hah!.

fer this, i LOVE my job. :))

the morning class. we are happy little kids.

corrrupted.

the girls: cikgu..buat twist.

the boys: takmo cikgu..buat mcm xpd.

tsk. tsk.

in e afternoon, i'll never missed out my miki liki. :))

really, he's bright.

more chores after school.
so children..teacher sakinah rocks the playschool? hehe.

its all bout my little ones now, my significant ones.

overall, i miss my dear hoozy.

later.

sweetdreams.

day at school.

2007-04-16T20:50:00.000-07:00

today's lesson. really caused me a severe exhaustion. tskk.
introducing my favourite boy in my k2 class. Maliqi, mikiLIKI. haha.
gahhh. he's effing sexy can!
the usual block corner's face. hisyam..suhaily's boy. :))
let's paint em papers!

the ones who's always fighting over the dramatic corner.

tralala~tralala~ take my school bag going home~

see u tmrw kiddies!

2007-04-15T23:48:00.000-07:00

its always been that when indian meets chinese, malay get screwed up.
tskk.
no no..this ain't my conception of racism. just as concerns to a multiracial family of mine.
and yesterday they screwed us up again coz..they're just perfectly good. thank God :)
but i never feel at home when the indians are around. we just dont click.

i always have my fave indulgence lies in my aunts baking.
had her lemon cheesecake! gahh. the taste is superior.

aunty suhailah's yummeh lemon cheesecake :)) me n izhar had that one quater.

thats my gurl right there. hmm. sufi's a big boy.

to all the poly freshies hope its happening there in school. yea im plainly jealous. =/

but werking is much fun thou.

oh well, imma catch the little rascals real soon. miss watching it. kak j finally found the cd. thanks boo. :))

later.

sweet dreams.

P.O.P

2007-04-15T15:45:00.000-07:00

HAH. im feelin much to britney's pop.
IDKY!

blog soon.
later.

2007-04-12T23:52:00.000-07:00

im down with a slight fever. throat's burning and soaring quite bad that it hurts to swallow.
and adds on with cause by my little ones.

im profound to my job.
nt merely fer the usual werking reason. but my heart's really there fer it. im starting to appreciate the little ones more.
mdm supervisor's a nice person. she rocks the playschool just that her way displeases me at times.
as im no more in charge of hoozy's class, we both played sneak out. haha. he kept popping out by the corridor fer a couple of times merely to wave me. and i left my class fer short to have a talk with him.
if only i have him as part of my family.
seizing the sentiment.

maths night class was okay. classmates with izzul again. there's naufal too next to ours. our teacher's plainly ridiculous with his stupid and silly remarks. get us bursting. hah.

till here.

later.
sweet dreams.

2007-04-09T23:33:00.000-07:00

to beat around the bush can be as annoying.

took over K1 classes the whole day. supposedly ended at four pm and thot of meeting elis but had to scratch out last min coz i gotta mark a whole pile of books and prepare sum stuff fer tmrw lesson. tskk. poor elis. no no im nt ditching u or anything like that okay.
its been sometime since i handle with kids and so it was quite of a pressure just nw. but afterall kids are true love just like my boy, hoozy. the short boy embraced me by my hips n said to his mummy..
''Ibu, cikgu baik tau''.
heartfelt. :)
feeeling ok.

later.

ambiguity is you.

2007-04-08T23:46:00.000-07:00

teacher sakinah will be back tmrw kiddies :))

butterflies in my stomach.
just friends perhaps.

i love em kids.

2007-04-05T23:41:00.000-07:00

If you desire privacy today, don't deny yourself. Solitude can be beneficial.

its nice to read stuff that reads me. hah.
sorry it wasn't me yesterday.

ive registered fer night class at ite simei.
back to books and focused mind.
TP baby~
tskk.

just a random thought.
imma start having real savings frm nw.
nah nth bout having a grand wedding or anything like that. tsk.
thinking of an adoption after 21. hah. okay it might nt be as easy as i think. and surely there'll be lotsa negative view upon this. but well things are hard to explain at times and only u cud understand yrself better.

too much qs were asked that we didn't even leave some fer nw.

jealousy is a shit

2007-04-04T23:35:00.000-07:00

jealousy is a shit. im seein' it and its all over.

i hate it when e werld is F'n small. coincidence happen and its just so wrong.
disturbance are gettin' fractious. ive my limits okay. oh cmon, grow up.
im lackin' of privacy.
at this moment, i wish to be away. undiscovered.
perhaps i'll only have mom, nad n vanilla with me:)
just nice.

nt sayin' im superior or smth.
in fact, i ain't a big deal.

n i hope this ms ' fasha-licious' (-_____- wth) will fuckin stop her shit. dah nk mampos agaknyer kamu.

mr vanilla:))

2007-03-31T23:38:00.000-07:00

speakeasy was good.
suprisingly, met syadie. he was there fer friends in err..Acid Empire? i suppose. its been long and was boisterous just nw. ((:
e best part of everything was irfan's freestyle. others sounded kinda weird to my ears. oh well im nt into stuff like these.
whutever.

oh there's this mr nice guy at marina sq's Fox shop who seceretly discounted a polo tee that i bought yesterday. u.p twenty three bucks but charged me fer only sixteen. ((:

hmmm...vanilla or chocolate?
well....i'll stick to vanilla of course. ((;
oh i hate strawberry btw. gahhh.

later.

not today :/
IMY.

my hogwash

2007-03-29T11:08:00.000-07:00

as im a girl who always build air castles, i randomly pictured my very first date earlier on. too much relations with movies i suppose.

eventually i was check'n out this horoscope thingy that says..

When was the last time you worked on the relationship you have with yourself? Daily affirmations aren't just about staring at yourself in the mirror and saying 'I love you' (although that isn't a bad idea). You need to relish the unique qualities you possess and have a conscious gratitude about being who you are. One way you can do this is by treating yourself to a dream date. Treat yourself the way your Prince or Princess Charming would -- you deserve it!

read'n my mind aren't u.

sounds like a gd idea but im just nt up fer that.

okay its just some hogwash to fill in here.

i still want a guy like Ian! gahhh.

later.

gd night;)

movie loco

2007-03-27T23:28:00.000-07:00

hey love.

movie's already an addiction to me. start'n to pick up routines frm nad.
im down with a migrane right nw. whuts nt 3 movies straight today.
She's All That, What A Girl Wants, A Walk To Remember n Coyote Ugly fer yesterday.daymn im so into Ian, Oliver James, in WAGW. im effing serious when i say that i want a guy like Ian. pretty please~ n deres a point when i get pressurize watching AWTR. haha. but rilli this is whut a movie can do to a person n im feel'n it. gahh. im get'n loco in anytime.

my very favourite scene;)

till here. head's spin'n bad.

idk

2007-03-24T23:25:00.000-07:00

killer cook

2007-03-22T23:19:00.000-07:00

i want whut i cant have. a plenty of em.

monopoly with gfs was hectic. glad that we're still doing stuff together thou we're no longer in e same sch.
imma killer cook. mom-in-law so gonna scorn me fer sure.

later.

;)

bored

2007-03-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

reconcile

2007-03-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

clarified things with e girl.
n so those msgs are made as reconcilement.
okay to think of it we both are silly.

today's quite monotonous.
i did nothing at all except fer e regular habit. tsk.
only when e night comes coz thats when my day usually gets a lil blitheful.
chat with e boy. i like it when at times he gets utterly senseless.
n im nt arrogant okay.

hopefully cud meet e gfs tmrw.
oh i want school!
sadly nt this year.

till e next time.

im just pretending tryna play hard. but ive been waiting tho.

amiss

2007-03-16T23:54:00.000-07:00

its never a perfect day.
starts pretty well and ends so wrong.

girl i dun ask fer e bad vibes.
we juz got to noe each other n serious shits r happening.
u think ure e only one who's upset?
ive feelings too.
it just saddens me e way u conclude stuff.
dun just blurt things bout me blindly.
no one's at fault and im nt angry at all. juz dissapointed.

i met e boy but i care bout e girl more :((

agitation

2007-03-14T23:42:00.000-07:00

IM RILLI FEELING AGITATED RITE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND IM NOT KIDDING!!

FHLAKHRIL VYBLWI YIBYIEWQYGIRYU BPUEIGUREIO HG;OERYIGYIEOWYB REYGR BVIWUYIOEWUTB VIOWERU VBHEGWAUKGUKVT VBJEYIO4U295YU99HILYW;OEGIQFVYI;OTQEGVWY VBTIRYB VV;YIOQOBY V6T8Y678467Y835HBHJBBNDSZIDSFKKDKJIU CVUYYUGTRHK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so unreasonable. i juz hate this! :((

uncertainties

2007-03-13T01:50:00.000-07:00

its all about nw. and it has always been one.
been a month plus n just nailed down chapter 15. haha i dun wish u to know that i even bother:))
times like this are rendering more to uncertainties. ive never showed that im all over u rite? well i hope so. once i might be falling fer u, then its gone.
i could like u but ure nt my dream guy. i could like you but not everything bout u. i could like you but at times u turn me off. but i could like you more than anything else, just fer who u rilli are.
apparently, i can't gain assurance frm 15 chapters. chapter 8 is heartfelt btw.
well dear please be true and be aware that hearts are fragile.
till we meet again. soon :))

hello mon?

2007-03-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

i did digital perming.
i find it cute. e hair. :))
mama fique n kak j have been seeking lotsa attention frm me lately. they can rilli get super annoying at times. yes its irritating. tsssskk.
seems like ages since i talk to big brother. he hasn't been hm fer e past 8 days? nah nt rilli missing him but i dun even noe where he is. weird isn't it?
thinking of it, im like an outcast in e family.

i hate friday. i hate saturday.
whuts nxt? :s

2007-03-07T22:57:00.000-08:00

i can't think fer myself nw.
so upset.

...

2007-03-01T23:27:00.000-08:00

caught dreamgirls with zita yesterday. its just as gd as watching it at home. didn't rilli follow up actualie coz e movie's such a bore. we juz sat in dere with zita immitating jennifer hudson..talked bout stuff n hoping fer it to end after each scene. tssskkk. but i had fun thou. zita can rilli make craps out of anything. she gets real wacky and silly juz to make me laugh.
n babe..stop cutting yr hair mayn!!!

where were we these days?

whutever

2007-02-28T03:46:00.000-08:00

its nearly 4. i dun feel like crashing. deres nth to do thou. so here i am blogging. supposedly chatting with alif n andi. they're busy werkin on their projects. n i juz hafta block em halfway. mayn..i can't believe that alif's fer real. whut was he thinking=/same goes to andi mr neighbour. haha. whutever k. im juz nt that sort.
i gt my pay btw. yayyness!
n i hate long post.

later peace.

my star

2007-02-27T23:32:00.000-08:00

messed up.

2007-02-26T23:42:00.000-08:00

it started out fine.
n ended getting things messed up. just so messed up.
y do i even bother apologizing?

i miss u too.

babyboynlittlegirl

2007-02-25T23:32:00.000-08:00

babyboy&littlegirl.
:)))

not now.

one day

2007-02-21T03:12:00.000-08:00

another beautiful day.
my dear, wat spell have u casted on me?
^__^!!
u noe ive never cared bout u.
things are rushing to happen :s

had fun talking to him bout this ONE day.
one day with hundreds of hrs. one day thats all ours. one day only u and me. one day....i wonder when will that be. :))

and! he promise. no more smoking. yayy :))

one day ;))

i can change.

2007-02-16T23:18:00.000-08:00

like finally its e end of today. dayyymmmnn. i can't believe that my whole day was actualie blasted with shits n craps. frm her to him to him and to her. seriously, fcuk off my life can? sorry.
and these people spoilt my day that i totally fergot bout going out.

i think ive changed to the worst. i rilli can feel e changes nw. i wasn't as nice as i was a few years back. when i used to give in ALOT and understand matters well. but nw it juz lacks in me. =/ doesn't matter at all if im nt a hot chic with slender n sexy figures, materialistic or so. i dun need to be liked and be special to everyone. all i ask fer is to be a simple girl with a gd heart and attitude. it feels so good to make people happy even with little things that i can do. i rilli wanna be that ordinary girl.
i can change:)

hope fer tmrw.

rauzan's crib

2007-02-15T23:56:00.000-08:00

no werk on thursday and friday. i need a breather frm those weird people.

went to rauzan's place in e afternoon. met kak j in e evening n hangout with dinah at night. nth gd to blog actualie. just some pics frm rauzan's room ;)

e coolest wardrobe ever!

haha. kawaii.

''lacoste is the shit''

where hot beats are produce.
the oven!!

and thats me making hotcakes! haha. like real!

well..im juz a girl who was born in this world this morning n gotta see this kinda room fer e 1st time.

later. peace!

dear love

2007-02-15T01:11:00.000-08:00

dear love. i juz don't know whut to expect.

jokes hide truth

2007-02-14T03:13:00.000-08:00

finally i told shima bout quitting. hopefully no bad impression.=/
seriously i can't stand my job. i hate making ppl wasting their time blabbering shits which i dun understand at all. even at times i pretend like i do and in e end everything went wrong. tskk. but i love e staffs dere. my judgements by looks are totally wrong. they're super duper nice k. 'aunties' all call me sayang. :)) i feel e love! haha. feeelingg~ well they r never angry ppl.
except fer e malaysian guys staff. dayymmnn. irritating k.

i like my dear boy more n more each day:)
another something new. we both will remember;)
yr jokes hide truth. i noe :))

dear.

dear

2007-02-12T01:27:00.000-08:00

u noe...i dun mean whut i denied.
how do i tell u?
please change yr mind.
prettyplease~

u made my day :)
it feels so nice :)
feels closer to u :)

i like u :)

dear.

pretty please

2007-02-10T23:50:00.000-08:00

Pretty Please~

n so here's my result.

English 6
C.Humans 9
Maths 7
C.Science 7
Art 3
Mt 2
only eligible fer architecture, landscape architecture n interior design at SP.

yeap. imma stupid ass. ure welcome to look down on me.
i admit i didn't study fer my o's. i swear. a lil regret but im so nt gonna drag this feeling.

seventeen

2007-02-08T22:24:00.000-08:00

out of point

2007-02-08T21:54:00.000-08:00

Out Of Point.

YOU
Known as: Sakinah.Kina.Kin.Kin Madeira:)
Born: today but 17 years back:))

HAVE YOU EVER
Fallen off the bed?: when i sleep im as gd as dead.
Broken someone else's heart?: have i?
Had your heart broken?: its nothing new.
Had a dream come true?: im full of empty hopes n dreams.

CURRENTLY...
Wearing: punjabi suit. XD
Listening to: e fan oscilating.
Chatting with: i love blocking my msn contacts.

DO YOU...
Have any piercings: i want it at e nose
Drive: i juz need a driver
Drink: bandung? hah
Have a cell phone: yup but its nt important.

LAST PERSON YOU...
Hugged: mama
Talked with on the phone: rauzan sang me a bdae song.
Text: kimkim.

DO YOU...
Like to give hugs: i believe no one wants my hug.
Like to walk in the rain: when im nt nicely clad.
Prefer black or blue: black
Sleep on your side: i sleep like rojak.
Have stuffed animals: i dun give a hoot bout em.

This Or That..
Pierced nose or tongue: nose!!
MTV or BET: mtv..
7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: ive never watched dawsons creek.
Chocolate or flowers: flowers fer nad nt me.
Colored or black-and-white photo: both r fine.
Stay up late or sleep in: lately i prefer to sleep early.
Hot or cold: freezing cold.
Sun or moon: stars?
Left or Right: fer what?
Spring or Fall: winter
Happy or sad: when im sad i tend to eat alot.
Wonder or amazement: im still wondering why u did that!!!

FIRSTS.
First piercing/tattoo: mama forced me to pierce my ears when i was nursery.
First crush: e guy in e sch bus during kindergarten. whuts his name?

LASTS.
Last time you cried: when my manager saw a japanese lady customer half naked below e cashier counter coz e fitting room was full. i swear!
Last phone call: 1215 am. im always free from calls.

CURRENT.
Current mood: devoid.
Current annoyance(s): im juz devoid.

WHO LAST...
Made you smile: i smiled to myself.
Made you cry: my japanese customer

WOULD YOU RATHER...
Be serious or be funny?: im juz nt both
Drink whole or slim milk?: fresh can?
Spend time with your parents or enemy?: i never hate anyone. n anything fer parents.

DO YOU PREFER...
Do you prefer gray or black?: black looks fresher.
Lust or love?: of coz love. but i dun care bout both as fer nw.
Sunrise or sunset?: sunrise
M&M's or skittles?: skittles!!!!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
Do you like anyone right now?: what if.
Do you believe in love at firstsight?: love is blind.
Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl?: its a mistake to fall fer me.

ape jerr!

dfs

2007-02-07T23:27:00.000-08:00

today's my first day werkin at DFS. everyone's super nice k! well...except fer two. i dun give a hoot actualie. some people juz have this mentality that they shud nt mix ard with newbies. coz they're more experienced people? n they fcuking noe how to speak chinese jap n korean while i dun even understand a shit bout it. i wonder whuts with em. niwae i can't speak chinese but i do understand bits of yr conversations. so mind yr words huh.
but i seriously need to know these 3 languages. i juz feel so useless n pathetic at werk. =(
its nice of my bro to wait fer me. n i supposed he was having a hard time. hah. dinner was delayed coz we waited fer abg fazli but in e end im juz too tired even fer dinner.

till e nxt time.

choco loco

2007-02-05T23:29:00.000-08:00

Choco Loco.

e interview went smooth. thanks nad n rauzan fer accompanying.
n i juz feel like puking nw. i guess its caused by e gelatissimo ice cream n this weird kinda taste fried mars chocolate with ice cream that rauzan introduced us. but its quite nice though. pointless post. but im juz nt in e mood. :)) hah.

?!?!?!

goodbye hello.

2007-02-01T23:43:00.000-08:00

Up above e werld so high!

im back. mayn i miss blogging.
e rollercoaster ride's over. n im feelin new nw. how fast situation changed. im juz glad. im feelin high nw. juz way up high. its been long since i felt this. :))
a couple of gd things happened fer e past days. whuts important we're all back n feel connected again. n some occasion that widen e circle of friends. well nth more i cud ask fer. it juz feels so good with friends ard. :))

zita's sweet 17.

Speakeasy.

Get a copy n taste his music. i swear they're nice stuff.

Susu's sweet 17.

The heart boiler! seriously.

Sweet to the heart Lara Conceicao

My two little china dolls.

The mad teacher.

.................................

those little things that made my day. why do u even bother. :))

i met her

2007-01-05T01:48:00.000-08:00

I met her.

Firstly....

My days in 06, i cherish em. The smile, laughter, shedding tears, heart-rending..i went through alot, meaningfully, though it all ended tragically.
People, they come and go. If only they could stay a lil longer. Somehow i wish they knew that i rilli do treasure em more than a precious gift.
But its all gone now.
Yes, its a new year and im totally wrong bout starting fresh.
Im just fine with e way i am.

Thanks girlfriends fer a wonderful new year. The party, dance n laughter..its all ecstasy.

.................................................................

Finally, im werking. Im a PAP assistant teacher/nanny! I hate it when e kids started puking and crying. But otherwise, they're cute!

goodbye,you.

uncleared

2006-12-26T03:30:00.000-08:00

Uncleared.

changed my blogskin again coz im already bored with e previous one.

Today's wonderful. Thanks Imran fer e pizza,icecream,jokes n listening ear. Though im still a lil down, but u made me smile. Appreciate it lots bro.
Well..actualie it touches e heart when a guy still cares for you although he means nothing to you n even if you've cut him to pieces. I do feel e sincerity. After all..to like doesn't mean to love. n nt to love doesn't mean nt to like.

Lately ive been doubtful bout something. It keeps playing ard with my mind. Ive been trying n i tried real hard to let go of this thought. Sumhow i still get myself reminded. Im already turned off being in this complicating situation which sumtimes i myself don't know what its all about.
I was miles away. I knew nothing. I was a stranger. But i chose to get here. Now im stuck n i just wish i wasn't here frm e start.

??????

down

2006-12-21T03:12:00.000-08:00

Down.

i don't realise anything better.
how do i start? or shud i even start?

im feeling down. really really down.
Nad, thanks lots. <333

gd nite.

everyday is about you.

tags rply_____

eera: nopes nt yet=(

actionboy: hello! :))

For u lovely

2006-12-09T20:51:00.000-08:00

For You Lovely.

heyho.

i so lurve Eisley. ive got my ears set to one of their stuff, My Lovely. its something bout e way they sound makes em unique. n i really dig indie bands with lady vocalist :)

seems like dere's unknown error in my blog. im having difficulty replying tags in my tagboard. grr..shiiizm!

Daniel bought me a PSP coz somedays ago i told him i envy it. i was juz pretending! still figuring out whutelse can i do with e thing. im nt e kinda person who takes effect on games. its nt rilli my thing. so i guess i'll just let my bro own it.

till here.

remember its for you only.

tags rply____
shyanne: hello :)) thanks!
aikha: aite..will link u soon :))

360

2006-11-29T23:34:00.001-08:00

threehundredandsixty!!

I've signed up with IMI today n im officialy theirs. :))
no contract juz a freelance thingy but i still need a part time job!

i was supposed to be with e 2nd family at costa sands today as its ismail's bdae. unfortunately i missed it coz e interview took an hr of my time. =/
niwae..
Happy 16th Birthday Ismail Rafiqy :))

till here.

everyday is about you.

Tags reply____
aruna: soo sorie aruna. fergot! :)))
iame: haha. thx fer e suggestion. i must be damn desperate fer $.huhu~

grrrrr.

2006-11-28T03:08:00.000-08:00

Sixteen Days.

its been long. bloody long k :(

im actualie quite disappointed with myself. these days i've been making sucky decisions. everything ended up so wrong. grrr.

bye=/

everyday is about you.

money honey kicky wicky

2006-11-22T08:27:00.000-08:00

money honey kicky wicky

ciao.

hit vivo city n marina sq yesterday with an, mail, tosh, mimi,ali,si hong n nad. yeap sch ended but we'll still be in touch.

everyone sort of got a job. im broke. seriously. grrr. whats holiday without cash. sucky man.
no cash, no online shopping n holidays ain't a phenomenon. imma start werking before november ends.

k bye.

im fer real. u juz don't see it.

im so true

2006-11-19T01:27:00.000-08:00

Im so True.

Ciao.

i guess ive been trying too hard. nw i dun see e point.

its a gd feeling that these days i've actualie made lotsa new friends. i like em lots n rilli do treasure em. truly hope that this time friendship will last. pretty please~
n yea, i've come to accept e fact that some things i rilli can't change em.

.....................

gd night.

Blissful Birthday :)

why would i?

2006-11-16T11:15:00.000-08:00

why would i?

ciao. gd morning :)

e whole of my body is aching badly esp my feet! thx to e high heels+sneakers. i need a real good massage! lol.

went to a job agency with kak j at tamp to check out jobs. i desperately need cash in hand!
dere are things i wanna own which doesn't cost peanuts.
had combo 1 again yesterday. damn e price increased by 20 cents. its e gst i guess.
caught The Grudge 2 yesterday at 945 pm. thot of watching Step Up but e trailer shows that e movie will be a predictable one. supposedly im watching with only kak j but later on mom called n eventually its expected that she n granny wanna tag along. well at least we did something on kak j's birthday.

The Grudge 2 was okay. it didn't rilli scare me. perhaps it'll be better if i watch e The Grudge 1. dere's lots of random killing during e 1st part of e movie. e ending was heart boiling! i spent 7 bucks n 1 hr 45 mins just to watch everyone getting killed. then e evil spirit? e movie's like got no plot. good thing its unpredictable.

till here.

a mind fer u ; unseen

2006-11-15T23:48:00.000-08:00

Dear Kak J,

just hope that one day u'll be as hardwerking as me :))

Im listening to monotony.

2006-11-12T19:43:00.000-08:00

Im listening to monotone!

hey ciao.

im feeling bored n lonely rite nw :( nothing to do. no one to talk to. uh hur its a gd thing that i've a blog!

i miss karoke-ing. esp with diana n nad! its a perfect pastime. we won't get tired of it and we'll go crazy karaoke-ing e whole day esp when our voice gets off pitch. lol! hell its a gd laugh! huhu~ but i can't karaoke till i get a new mic. 2 mics of mine are spoilt! grrr. thanks to them below..

sufi n eligel ; e biggest fans of superheroes.

suddenly i feel like becoming another person to judge myself. i wanna see e real me nt my reflection. i wanna know exactly how ppl feels bout me n how sucky my attitude is. perhaps i cud change to be a better person. but i'll always try to be nice. well everyone makes mistakes n learn frm it. this may be pointless. just a sudden reflectivity.

okay im off~

im seriously serious.

shitness

2006-11-10T23:49:00.000-08:00

Shitness

am already putting an end to o's. grrrr.

had combo one at ljs yesterday. but nw im craving fer it again! was at marina sq with zita n nad last night fer only a purpose. then on e way back home met some niggers frm brazil. they offered us free air tix to their hometown n they'll settle e food, hotel n stuff. one of them said that he's ronaldo's long distant cousin. -__- ! shiiitzz. perhaps e niggers tryna trap us. but best kan braziil!

combo one sedaaap!

im like this coz i miss u.

unseen elation

i've been living with this perception of expecting a breakdown behind my happy moments. i've been through it fer countless of times. im expecting it again n i noe it'll hit me soon. well i'll have to let go and move on. but sumtimes i guess its my actions that reflects back at me. okay shitness. -_-!

imma big gurl

2006-11-06T22:28:00.000-08:00

Im A Big GUrl!

hey ciao.

im bloody shagged lar today. yersterday was a long day n i slept fer only an hr liddat.
paper was easy weasy okay! huhu~ but im nt confidently saying that i'll pass coz i only started revision seriously yesterday! but indeed its easy uh.

online shopping's cool shit! am already making it a necessity. kak j showed me e website n e first thing i saw was a abercrombie & fitch top. its so lawaaaa! so i gt it straight. n its also quite cheap lorr. i saw this ripcurl handbag that nad adores n its been sold at a much cheaper price than e ones at store. spent e whole night browsing through stuff with kak j. she gt a guess handbag. i thot of buying another top frm zara. but guess i'll check out how this one werks 1st.

these days my neighbours are kinda weird. like they have known me fer years, watch me growing but i remembered only started seeing them this year. haha. but rilli. yesterday i met a malay old lady under our blk n she said...awak yg tinggal tingkat lima tu kan..dah besar eh sekarang..dulu kecik, pendek je nenek tengok...abeh awak baby nenek dokong selalu nangis...
then today dere's also this chinese lady told me...wah girl u big ah now. last time u so small leh...now u sec wat? sec 2 ah?
hahaha! hell do i look like im 14?! but niwae i dun remember seeing them during my younger days. i only remembered this dumb neighbour who'll always frown n give her best stucked up face whenever ppl walk pass her house at night. feel like igniting her house! grrrrr!

ali sent me this.

they're bloody awful n fugly scary k!
fer e first time i screamed hard in public like ppl did in haunted house.
e guy ghost shouted at my face!! e pontianak touched me that i trembled badly. its so scary lorr~

well..thot of going to vivo city with kak j tmrw. she got no more kids to teach n she's so free! i need a pair of brand new sneakers!!
im off~

imdueforamiracle.

arrivederci buona notte :)

bandung queen

2006-10-31T13:38:00.000-08:00

Bandung Queen

Ciao la gente!

had mt paper yesterday. i find it easier than e 1st one but still not that easy. but at least i completed my paper one in my 2nd attempt.

okay. seriously, ive got a severe prob with my art!! im lacking of ideas n most of my ideas r bloody slacking. kak j helped with an okay idea. at least better than mine but interpretations need to be made. whatever it is, i hafta stop doing artsy fatsy at 5 pm n start mugging on bio baby. bio's a friendly subject ;)

went orchard yesterday with nad n zita. checked out faidhi's werkplace. he sucks at werk. nad finally gt e esprit sweater that she longed fer. n i just checked out drinks. e bandung king's fav bandung. sedaaaap~

aite im off...study study study~

arrivederci buona notte :)

tmrw o's

2006-10-30T00:29:00.000-08:00

Severe mental block

Ciao la gente!

Tomorrow! coz its tmrw..coz tmrw's 30th october! n tmrws monday!
tmrw??

tmrw's e start of o level first written paper. ppl who experienced o's know how it feels. or perhaps they've fergotten? coz it no more bothers them. n yea, to those who passed wud say o's chicken feet!kan kan kan? -__-

frankly my preparations fer o's wasn't intensive =/uh hurh. i pemalas i noe. i just lurve slacking i noe. i only wanna have fun i noe. but its nt wrong u noe? no one's to blame. okay? just lock yr lips n that wud be fine ;)
but as much as e preparation wasn't gd, deep down my heart i wanna achieve e criteria to get to poly or any private arts sch. dun rilli mind e not-so-popular courses as long as its art related. woots~
but niwae im more concern bout e end of everything. i've gt a whole long list of plans already. huhu~

okay nw im blank of ideas fer e art...i screwed e supporting studies...n i feel like burning e shits ive drawn. grrrrr!

beloved classmates, we all will ignite e o's :))

arrivederci buona notte :)

italian shit

2006-10-27T04:01:00.000-07:00

Sembro Italiano?

Ciao!
conosco la zappa per parlare italiano :)

a new shit coming frm me. ii was bored so ii checked out this online word translator. kinda fun actualie. ii shared it with fal. but he said it doesn't werk coz he failed to translate 'smelly' to italian in a few trial. actualie he's e random one. smelly out of all werds! well~ this is just to kill boredom! huhu~

yesterday ii planned today with nad. somehow it turns out a diff kind of 'today'. BUT still e unexpectation of today is great lah sey~
we're supposed to go orchard but somehow how vivo city shot our mind. at e same time we said bout fal going dere e other day. n yah we met him n imran dere coincidently. small werld in a big place! imran's a very nice man. ii was actualie expecting to meet fal again anywhere in this werld since e gig thingy went wrong. tsssk. but iim happy lei~ that guy ii saw in a picture is no more a stranger.

o levels? dun wanna be reminded can? pfffft!

a r r i v e d e r c i b u o n a n o t t e :)

HariRaya

2006-10-23T03:43:00.000-07:00

HappyEidMubarak

Wishing all Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin!
enjoy and have a good one.
btw dun fergt to ask fergiveness frm yr lovely parents aight ;)

s o l o n g g o o d d a y :)

B r a n d N e w B l o g

2006-10-22T15:23:00.000-07:00

BrandNewBlog

okay.
iim back to blogging in a brand new blog with new url.. new templete..everything's new except fer e tagboard.
well...just decided to abandon e old blog becuz erm~~ actualie iim nt rilli sure why!
e thought just shot me. iim aimless at times u see~
but niwae ii much prefer my new blog! huhu~

s o l o n g g o o d d a y :))

2006-10-22T15:00:00.000-07:00

hello new blog :)